I came to CASA for help because I was tired of being tired. I come from a very dysfunctional family, one of drug abuse, domestic and gang violence. As a result, I was a victim of rape, molestation, and almost murder. Things had been so bad I contemplated suicide, but I figured taking my own life could not be the answer, there had to be something better out there for me. So like I said, I got tired of being tired and one day I sat down and talked with my kids to try and figure out a way to better myself and become comfortable with my surroundings. Although no one knew the answer, we all agreed on one thing, I needed help. So, I searched Philadelphia, walking from place to place trying to find some guidance, but it seemed everyone had a reason to turn me away, one even claimed I had to have enough drugs in my system to be put into treatment, so I broke down. I felt hopeless. I called my son explaining if he did not find me help right now, I was going to use again. My drug of choice was heroin and the temptation was all around me. I tried to speak with God asking Him for help, I wanted it so bad, I needed it. My son told me he needed me, and to hold on a bit longer, then brought me to CASA. What’s crazy is I had walked by CASA countless times never really noticing it or knowing what lay inside and what they could do for me. Once inside I signed up for the program immediately. Since then it hasn’t been easy, but it’s been worth it. CASA was the first step to helping me believe in myself again. They supported me financially, spiritually, and emotionally. Before CASA, I was incredibly guarded, my walls were built and filled with anger, but now, talking about my story helps me to heal. It’s been almost two years now and I will admit I still struggle internally, but one thing I will always remember is to be patient, and although recovery is not easy, it is not impossible.